[Again, there's a pause before he replies, needing to take the time to absorb all that. Rereading it to make sure he read it all correctly. It was...a lot. A lot of suspicions confirmed, and a lot of new information to take in that settled in his gut like led.]
well, i never was accused of being smart. i wouldn't put that on all of us though, it's not a hope or belief all of us survivors share, and i get the nihilism. i do.
i know our chances of fighting back against something this powerful and actually winning or outsmarting it are slim to none. at best, we're insects biting at its ankles, and even if we do take it down it might just take us all down with it, but what other choice do we have? even if we just give in, what then?
this thing is never going to stop. you said it yourself, it's never going to be full. it will just keep bringing in new people as it eats through us, and i don't think you want to do this forever anymore than we do. so why shouldn't we at least try?
[Realizing a little too late what that "we" might have implied, he back-peddled hard to nip that notion in the bud.]
To be clear, I'm not implying you should fight back with us on your end. It sounds like the entity has an even tighter leash on you and your friends than she does on us, and you're right. This could all be pointless. I don't want any of you kids putting yourselves through more hell than you have to go through already for an idea that might not even pay off.
[He had no delusions, that was exactly what fighting back was going to entail. More attention, more punishment. And the kids especially, on either side, shouldn't have to have that on their shoulders. They'd already been through more than anyone should ever have to be.
Too bad all the teens on his side had scoffed at the idea of just keeping their heads down and letting the adults deal with it. They had a point, they were already in the shit anyway, they had every right to help get themselves out of it, but it was still equal parts endearing and infuriating that they were so insistent about it. More than that, it was deeply concerning that most of them were already better at handling this place then most of the adults.
Still, he felt the compulsion to try and keep them out of it where he could. Just because they could handle it didn't mean they should have to. And in this circumstance, that applied to Susie and the rest of the Legion, too.]
i have to at least try though, whatever the consequences. i want to get us out Susie, all of us, and even if that's not possible, even if we can't take it down or hurt it ourselves, i at least want us to leave behind something that can give the next people the tools to get a chance at it.
besides that, i don't think i'm ready to stop being afraid.
i'd be losing my defining personality trait.
what ever would i be known for then? being stupid? that's so much worse :(
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[Again, there's a pause before he replies, needing to take the time to absorb all that. Rereading it to make sure he read it all correctly. It was...a lot. A lot of suspicions confirmed, and a lot of new information to take in that settled in his gut like led.]
well, i never was accused of being smart. i wouldn't put that on all of us though, it's not a hope or belief all of us survivors share, and i get the nihilism. i do.
i know our chances of fighting back against something this powerful and actually winning or outsmarting it are slim to none. at best, we're insects biting at its ankles, and even if we do take it down it might just take us all down with it, but what other choice do we have? even if we just give in, what then?
this thing is never going to stop. you said it yourself, it's never going to be full. it will just keep bringing in new people as it eats through us, and i don't think you want to do this forever anymore than we do. so why shouldn't we at least try?
[Realizing a little too late what that "we" might have implied, he back-peddled hard to nip that notion in the bud.]
To be clear, I'm not implying you should fight back with us on your end. It sounds like the entity has an even tighter leash on you and your friends than she does on us, and you're right. This could all be pointless. I don't want any of you kids putting yourselves through more hell than you have to go through already for an idea that might not even pay off.
[He had no delusions, that was exactly what fighting back was going to entail. More attention, more punishment. And the kids especially, on either side, shouldn't have to have that on their shoulders. They'd already been through more than anyone should ever have to be.
Too bad all the teens on his side had scoffed at the idea of just keeping their heads down and letting the adults deal with it. They had a point, they were already in the shit anyway, they had every right to help get themselves out of it, but it was still equal parts endearing and infuriating that they were so insistent about it. More than that, it was deeply concerning that most of them were already better at handling this place then most of the adults.
Still, he felt the compulsion to try and keep them out of it where he could. Just because they could handle it didn't mean they should have to. And in this circumstance, that applied to Susie and the rest of the Legion, too.]
i have to at least try though, whatever the consequences. i want to get us out Susie, all of us, and even if that's not possible, even if we can't take it down or hurt it ourselves, i at least want us to leave behind something that can give the next people the tools to get a chance at it.
besides that, i don't think i'm ready to stop being afraid.
i'd be losing my defining personality trait.
what ever would i be known for then? being stupid? that's so much worse :(